It rained today, first time since I know when. It was a really happy rain, if rain could be happy, at least for a few minutes until it dissipated it was pretty happy.

Then it just started to all-out rain. My spirit and everyone elses seemed to sink a little. People got angry and I got sad. This weekend I watched the less seen sides of people come out; sides I really wish no one had but I understand why they exist.

A man stole all my sidewalk sale clothes. ALL of them, even the bins they were in. He even threw the "Take & Donate" sign against my fence as though it never existed. Sad thing is I'm well aware of who this person is and their desperation they have, though I don't relate to his exact form of. I know what it's like to need something so bad, a solution, an end-all to something that really doesn't adequately "fix" because you might just "break" that something else in the process but need to do it anyway. It's like, "at least that's over with." A new problem a lot of times seems like a better one. I adhere to that. I'm fairly certain this man had little to nothing, so I will just see it as charity work that I was doing. Inadvertent charity work.

Today I seemed to be the bastardized son of the household that got beat with the short stick. - Whatever, I'll just shake that shit off. Baby aint no thang like just being a lil sad for a day and tomorrow I'm sure I'll be smiling again much bigger.

xoj

HIP-HOP HOO-RAY, HO!

Totally into surf music lately and trip-hop / downtempo / ambient / experimental / electronica stuff especially. I know, that's a mouthful.

Brendan is moving here Sept 6th! That's my 2nd couch surfer who has moved here now and Sue-Li virtually has lived here as well, so maybe 3. HI SUE-LI!!!

I bought a bike for about $300, it's a $700 bike. It's a Novara (city in Italy) Randonee (French for "excursion,") a beautiful Italian touring bike and I have panniers for it too! Soooo happy! Aluminum frame, chromoly fork...blah blah. I'm stoked.

I'm going to Seattle next week for business again and business is SUPER GOOD now that another resale store opened I can sell to. I'm gonna be loaded soon. Or not, but I will be caught-up and travel planning for destinations more desirable than fucking SEATTLE. Shit on you!

La la la, I cannot wait for my warm sweet skinny little cuddle partner Brendan to move and I can warm his sweet baguette! HA HA

I'm still smiling!

LUVLUVJ

Ignorance

If I asked you if you knew where the country of Lesotho was, could you answer "yes?"

I came across a shirt that said, "made in Lesotho." I asked Lindsey if she knew where it was, nope....

It's in the middle of South Africa, completely landlocked by another country! Then I found out about Swaziland, another country pretty much in South Africa. Swaziland has the HIGHEST percentage of HIV/AIDS in the world, with 26% of its population affected.

I'm just another one of THOSE Americans now.

In other news, weird things have been going down.

proud

This has been the only time since the day Katie moved out of our apartment that I wanted to call her, she would be the only one that could totally understand the leaps and bounds of improvement I've made.

Long story short...

For those of you who are unaware, I used to live in Spokane, WA...prior to being 21 there was little to do late at night other than go to a near 24 hour diner called "Satellite." I had the hugest crush on one of the servers there. Katie, who also at the time lived in Spokane, had mentioned this to him, and in response he said I was cute! Oh! Ecstatic, right?! Wrong, too shy and unusual I never did anything about it.

Fast forward! It is about 2 or 3 in the afternoon a month back and I am taking a stroll down Stark st when I recognize a face I cannot place at that moment in front of The Bonfire. It suddenly strikes me! It's DEAN from the Satellite that used to live in Spokane!!! Point noted, I then made it my mission to go back there and ask him on a date.

Last night I did it non-awkwardly and like I wish I would have 4 years ago when I lived in Spokane. Had it worked out any other way it would've been another opportunity lost in retrospect. I am finally in a state of stability and confidence...it would've never lasted past one night of hanging out prior, and it is just funny how fate can align the stars for you down the road. Tomorrow we will see what cards I've been dealt.

More later. I'm fallin' asleep at the keys and not closing in on any gaps in my train of thought. Much love to ya'll!

xoj